Okay, so I have told a hundred times before I can be a little controlling. I mean, I know most people want things their way…who wouldn’t, right? Well, when trying to live a life pleasing to the Lord, we are required to relinquish control. It’s not about what we want, it’s about what He wants and what brings glory and honor to Him. I want a life that does that…but it comes with saying to myself, “I can’t handle it all.”
I know that…but it stings a little bit in my flesh because I want to handle everything. I want to make things happen. I want to score a touchdown everyday in life! Yesterday during worship, my pastor said a statement as part of his message, “If Jesus is in your huddle, you will get it right.” I quickly scribbled it down in my journal so I could come back to it. I pictured burly football players all gathered around one another trying to figure out the next play. If I’m honest with myself, I would be the pipsqueak in the middle trying to tell the qualified quarterback what to do. I always have a plan to try and help. It’s the control freak in me.
All day long yesterday, I knew God was reminding me again to quit trying to control an area of my life. I’ve told the husband numerous times, “I just don’t know what to do.” Yes, I’ve prayed about it, but it was like I kept getting in the huddle with God and saying, “gimme the ball, gimme the ball” when I had no clue what I was going to do with it because I haven’t given God enough time to tell me anything. I read the playbook, but I truly just haven’t given God time to explain the season that I am in and let him direct/coach me.
You see, it’s easy to sit down and know what God wants you to do…it’s clearly outlined in His Word. But sometimes, you need to put God in the personal huddle inside your head…shut up and listen…and wait for him to place you in the right position. Yes, I want Him to “coach me” through my prayers…but I must be willing to not just read The Playbook, but listen to His voice. He speaks, friend.
He wants me to get a touchdown.
He wants me doing a victory dance in the end zone.
He wants me to hold the trophy at season’s end.
But, all of that isn’t possible without putting Him in my huddle…allowing Him call the plays…and handing the ball over to someone more qualified…Jesus. Sheesh. I know I’m not the only one that struggles. I’ll pray for you and you pray for me. I know God knows better than me…He wrote the playbook…and I know that my problem in His hands will get farther down the field without me. In my hands, I just keep fumbling the ball.
This week as I look at my calendar, I will be reminded to just stand in the huddle and listen for God…to let Him work everything out. I’m just going to stand in the end zone with my arms ready to catch the blessing coming my way!
“Lord Almighty, blessed is the one who trusts in You!” -Psalm 84:12